First Day (at Day Care and Back to work)

[should have posted this yesterday, but fell asleep]

I kinda knew something was up when mom was up and showering at 6:30am. And then I was downstairs having breakfast with her way before we normally go downstairs. It was still dark out! I had not slept very well that night, unfortunately. In fact, I woke up every 2-3 hours for a feed. I think it is a growth spurt.

Anyhoo, mom and dad dressed me and put me in the car seat and we were out the door by 8am. The next thing I know, I am at Grandma's TLC Day Care. There are bigger kids running up to my car seat and peering in as my mom and dad make their way to the back room where I guess I will be hanging out. I stared out at the new surroundings and started to cry a bit. Then I noticed mom was tearing up which made me cry even harder. Mom and Dad gave me a big cuddle and then quietly left the house. It took me awhile to settle down. And I refused to eat for a good chunk of the day. In fact, I only had 2 ounces in 5 hours! Finally, though, I pulled it together and drank 4 ounces without a whole lot of fuss. I have to admit, I don't dig the bottle that much. I much prefer boob time, but it looks like I will only get that at night and in the early mornings. I cried a lot on my first day. It's a very big change from hanging with mom all day at home.

[enter mom] for weeks now, i have been saying how ready i am to get back to work, but when the day finally came, many tears were shed. the hardest part was looking into her big blue eyes and saying good-bye. it didn't help that i was playing sentimental music in the car ride out to work either (and can we talk about how bad the traffic is?!??!?!?!). olivia has definitely softened me. that said, i felt really good about leaving her with mama raine. there is so much love pouring out of the day care that i knew olivia would be spoiled with oodles of cuddles and coos.

and olivia's timing for her growth spurt sucks. she is literally up every 2 hours for a feed. not ideal when you have to get into work by 8am and be somewhat coherent.

as for work....it definitely feels different. for starters, i had no phone or computer (and still don't) which translates to me doing a whole lot of nothing. i do, however, have lots of olivia pics around the office. sometimes i just stare at them without even realizing it.

so, what's different?

• i pick my clothes out the night before
• i schedule "mom time" in my calendar 3 times daily for pumping
• my excitement about the video product is exceptionally high
• my manic "go-getter" ways seem to be much more chilled
• i feel more open to change [that's because after chatting with my manager, there is a ridiculous career opportunity that they want me to interview for....and i feel good about it. normally i would be getting manic and trying to get answers to a thousand different questions about the position]
• i have a ridiculous amount of patience for the help desk now
  
• i leave between 3:45-4 and that's non-negotiable

let's see how i feel in a couple of weeks....it may all change again!